Hello Potential blog readers.........sorry I have not blogged in a long time things have been chaotic having two kids with autism. One my daughter will be 12 the end of this month. My son is 14 and is becoming increasingly violent towards us and our house ....we are trying to seek help by putting him in a temporary home but it's a long tedious process .
We are also in the process of investigating a new neurologist as our current one just isn't working out.for us and all he seems to be doing is adding new drugs which we think is ruining his appitite he has lost a lot of weight
I often wonder when God is going to come through and work a miracle in our kids lives.......In his time I suppose. I Just have to keep the faith pray and read the bible
One question my husband and I are often asked is. "How do you do it ?
The only thing I can say is with Gods help.........because with out Gods help I would have given up and Killed myself long ago.
Since I last wrote on my blog we discovered that my husband has autism too......Wow life is not dull around here but it defuses the booster shot theory or the C Section theory to me
People are always stating there opinions about autism.........but you know the people that live it day in day out get my attention fast.
I don't mind getting autism articles ext from people who aren't experienced but I would prefer a clean funny joke,a scripture verse,or words of encouragement and prayer.. If you live close and want to help out in some way money for gas .a sitter for at least my daughter on Sunday,Wednesday night and Saturdays during the day is badly needed.
I also need clothes for myself always need those as Rebecca fits into a majority of them.
I struggle with destructive thoughts sometimes because of my Bipolar/Manic deppresive disorder and Boarderline Personality. I don't and wont act them but they are still there .......I don't need people telling me my children and I ext are demon possesed.
I know where I stand with Jesus and have felt his protection.
I believe in continuous faith and prayer
I believe that somewhere in time there will be healing in my family but unfortunately it's not in my time Yet fourtunately it's in Gods hands not Satans
Gem's and Jewels of life
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Can you hear me ?
Can you hear me ? Can you see me ?.....Do I look alright ? Do you care ? When you see me in a room full of average looking people. Sometimes you can't until I make an odd sound or run into you cause I can't see straight then you curse and call me names like retard or worse/.....sometimes you see my wheel chair and give me looks of pity when what I really need is for you to say hi I'm Lee and maybe touch my shoulder or shake my hand if I let thee.
Can you hear me Churches can you see? Is there room for mommy,daddy and me ? Will you open your eyes and see how much church is important to us three and many more you see.
Can we worship Jesus and sing off key, Or is that too much for thee
All I want to be is free to be me and worship Jesus too you see
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Learning to laugh when life throws dirty diapers atyou.
It's hard to laugh sometimes when you can't see the end of the tunnel. I myself have found it makes the journey so much easier to laugh.
My son loves my bedroom and will stay in there for hours at a time the trouble we have with that is he is 14 and not fully potty trained (though we continue to try) he will often take it upon himself to change diapers after doing his business on our floor and then to hide it he finds a bed sheet or piece of clothing such as shirts and socks ext to cover the mess
I haven't found the joy and laughter in that.........but I do sometimes find the joy through his infectious laugh that he gets when he gets to go to his favorite stores such as Wal Mart.or watch Veggie Tales
My daughter is the type of kid who makes the funniest faces ext she is the type that would put a bucket on her head dance around and run into walls.
Times like when Matt was little and my husband "played Spirit In Thee Sky" on CD Matthew (1yr old at the time) stood up in his crib and started bouncing and wiggling in his, giggling.
These are just a few things that made us laugh.
I have learned to laugh at myself when I run into things,or trip over things. which happens often because I have depth perception problems.
I sometimes offend people unintentionally because I make jokes about dealing with the ups and downs of Bi Polar/manic depression as I have struggled with it for many years.
Well my gem Matthew is lurking around he's been known to attack me for every noise his sister makes and sometimes just out of the blue......most of it is hormone related so I am going to end this blog post and make sure I'm safe.
My son loves my bedroom and will stay in there for hours at a time the trouble we have with that is he is 14 and not fully potty trained (though we continue to try) he will often take it upon himself to change diapers after doing his business on our floor and then to hide it he finds a bed sheet or piece of clothing such as shirts and socks ext to cover the mess
I haven't found the joy and laughter in that.........but I do sometimes find the joy through his infectious laugh that he gets when he gets to go to his favorite stores such as Wal Mart.or watch Veggie Tales
My daughter is the type of kid who makes the funniest faces ext she is the type that would put a bucket on her head dance around and run into walls.
Times like when Matt was little and my husband "played Spirit In Thee Sky" on CD Matthew (1yr old at the time) stood up in his crib and started bouncing and wiggling in his, giggling.
These are just a few things that made us laugh.
I have learned to laugh at myself when I run into things,or trip over things. which happens often because I have depth perception problems.
I sometimes offend people unintentionally because I make jokes about dealing with the ups and downs of Bi Polar/manic depression as I have struggled with it for many years.
Well my gem Matthew is lurking around he's been known to attack me for every noise his sister makes and sometimes just out of the blue......most of it is hormone related so I am going to end this blog post and make sure I'm safe.
Saturday, April 5, 2014
My dearest little children
My precious little ones
You are such a treasure
From up above
You were given to us to
Cherish and too love
I am truly thankful for the
Special gift you are
No other child can take
The place of you.
When Jesus brought you too us
We were filled with wonder
and
awe
As we counted your tiny
fingers
And cuddled you oh so tight
Your precious beautiful eyes
And face reminded daddy and
Mommy of Gods abiding grace.
Little did we realize,what
trials
Lie ahead
As we stroked your little curls
And Kissed your tiny
head.
You seemed to progress
normally
Until you were nearly
2
We realized you
were no longer talking
Or doing
things that children of 2 or 3
Normally do.
Our hearts were deeply
saddened
When after months turned
Into a year then into 2
When we finally heard the
The words your child has Autism
The words wrung loud and
clear
But I was in denial
As I could not face this
daunting trial. or even
shed a tear
I was in denial
The word Autism I could not
hear.
For my heart was filled with
sorrow
Sadness and fear
Until I realized Jesus was
standing near
Oh Master, Saviour, Jesus,
Lord
I finally cried out loud
I know that you are always with
us
I just can't help but wonder
Would we ever hear the words
I love you Mommy and Daddy
From our precious children’s
lips.?
Would we ever see them run and
play baseball and other games
Kids play..?
My heart was filled with wonder
and dismay
Until I heard my Savior say “
hush my child
Listen to my voice “
For I have made a special
choice
I chose you to be their voice
Though it won't be easy these
precious children
Need you so.
I have a special plan for them
you see and need
You to help Me., help them
grow.
Give them lots of love and tender
care and tell them
About Me
Though you may not think they'll
understand,
Just Leave that up
to me
For I know their
thoughts and feelings
they cannot express
to anyone but
me
For I am their Heavenly Father
You see .
Creator of all
things
I have blessed them
with a gift
That the world
needs to see
A gift that will
bring new life
And set souls free
If only you will
trust me
And give them back
to me
My Saviour Lord and King I
I give you every
thing these
Children we will
raise and
Give you all our praise
Help me to understand the hurting
Hearts filled with uncertainty
and fear
Who look upon my children as
burdens
Of doom and
despair.
Help me to love them
With
your perfect love
And show them these
special children
Are gifts from God above
Who need tenderness
And love. Before they are
Murdered and thrown away
For they have a voice that
We cannot hear calling and
Crying for life so dear
Lord help them there dyeing
By millions each year.
Help us to show them
We care
Laura MacNair
Friday, April 4, 2014
The reason behind my Title
H! My name is Laura and I have two autistic treasure nick named "little man "(14yrs old ) and a "little" 11 yr old girl named "Boo (from monsters inc). I am 41 and married to my husband Sean.
I am going to come right out and say it.........I am a Christian so you may see a lot of christian based stuff on here if that offends you don't read my blog.
My husband has Aspergers Syndrome and me I am Bi Polar/Manic Depressive and Boarder line Personality Dissorder and have other health problems.
So life is never dull around here.
I apologize for poor spelling and grammar errors something I need to work on.
I have many hobbies and writing poems,songs, children's stories are just a few.
I hate discussing politics so you won't be hearing it from me .
I won't argue religion I might share how I became a Christian but you don't have to read it if you don't want too. I will share some aspects from my past so I ask anyone that knows my parents and sisters to not approach them about what I say........every family has their secrets but I am not going into all those just some things I struggled with.
I will be sharing jokes and humor (clean humor)
I will probably share recipes or whatever comes to mind.within reason
I am going to come right out and say it.........I am a Christian so you may see a lot of christian based stuff on here if that offends you don't read my blog.
My husband has Aspergers Syndrome and me I am Bi Polar/Manic Depressive and Boarder line Personality Dissorder and have other health problems.
So life is never dull around here.
I apologize for poor spelling and grammar errors something I need to work on.
I have many hobbies and writing poems,songs, children's stories are just a few.
I hate discussing politics so you won't be hearing it from me .
I won't argue religion I might share how I became a Christian but you don't have to read it if you don't want too. I will share some aspects from my past so I ask anyone that knows my parents and sisters to not approach them about what I say........every family has their secrets but I am not going into all those just some things I struggled with.
I will be sharing jokes and humor (clean humor)
I will probably share recipes or whatever comes to mind.within reason
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